Paper fairy would rather be dead

I totally agree with and understand what you said about A & E. Waste of time.

GPs, especially if they don't know you, are always reluctant to give any benzos to patients. Can you possibly ring the surgery and make it clear that this is a serious emergency, and can you talk to the senior doctor? Failing that, have you tried the Mental Health Crisis Team in your area? Your GP's receptionist will know their number. You're going through such a bad time - my heart goes out to you. There you are, screaming for help, and not getting any. Possibly your doctor will be able to fast-track you through to medics - but why doesn't s/he just prescribe you a few diazepam or similar to help get you out of this bad patch? It makes me angry when people have to suffer - all because doctors (who started us all on valium anyway) are now so badly misinformed that they won't give any at all, even in cases of obvious need.

Isn't there a walk in centre for addicts in your area? If there is, perhaps you should go there? Unless you've already tried them in the past and they didn't help.

One other thought - wait until your surgery is closed, then dial 111 and ask for an urgent, right now appointment to see the doctor on call. They will probably give you enough medication to get you throough the worst of the hallucinations.

So sorry to read that your partner has deserted you and has taken loads of your money - to Italy. That's enough to get you started up with the alcohol big time. I really hope you find a way out of this - let us know - we'll be thinking of you. Love Tess.

You have two options at the moment, convincing your GP to give you diazepam (they don't usually hand out Librium) or if the doctor can get you into the hospital, they are less likely to throw you out. But, they may want to section you, because they might deem you not mentally stable.

And you can call me all the bad names under the sun, but I would tend to agree with them, I don't think some time away from your current position would do you any harm and it would keep you off the alcohol.

I worry that if the doctor gives you diazepam, who is going to administer it. You need to be in sound mind and well, neither of which I think you are. Would you know how much to take and when? What happens when you finish. The first slight hint of emotional trouble, stress or anxiety and you would be straight back on the alcohol.

If your doctor gives you diazepam and you do something silly, his neck is on the line and it would make him more likely to say no to the next person he sees with a drink problem.

If they can get you into hospital, I would advise you to take it.

Let us know how you are when you can.

You might want to be dead, but I am pleased that your posting says that you want to get well again too......

I will be waiting to hear how things go, please let us know.

Pat.

I hope you can get the medical help you need, SOON.

My thoughts are with you.

Blessings,

Alonangel 🎇